Passionately Uncertain

One of my many goals this year is to teach myself to cook. Being a student I’m on a limited budget and constantly eating convient cheap foods rather than slightly more expensive but 100 times more delicious and healthy foods. Due to this realization I went out and invested in ‘The Illustrated Student Cookbook’ by Keda Black. All of the food looks simply delicious, easy to prepare and it’s not going to make or break my budget! When I try out a few recipes I’ll let you guys know how it goes!

On another note, I have much to catch up on. I’ve been in a slacking self pitying mood the last couple weeks and it’s taken me quite awhile to get back into the swing of things since Christmas break. Today however, I’m feeling very energized and slightly happier then I have been so I’m going to take full advantage of that. What on the agenda for tonight?

Another stupid list ($#!% sorry guys!)

• Do laundry 
• Pay bills
• Get caught up on Political Science readings & notes

Nothing too hefty but hopefully it’ll make a big difference! Any suggestion on getting back into the swing of things since the break would be greatly appreciated! 

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Wow this week has been ridiculous but amazing all at the same time. My placement is wonderful, I mean really really wonderful. It is exactly what I want to be doing when I graduate and I’m learning so much because it is such a small organization. I have had a little bit of trouble commuting and keeping everything together but in the end everything I’m learning and how much I’m loving it, kind of outweighs that!

After placement last night I was stuck in Toronto with noway home but thankfully my friend agreed to put me up for the night and now her and her room mate are trying to convince me to move in with them! As fantastic as that would be, I feel like I would be an imposition as much as they are trying to convince me I wouldn’t be. However, it is still something to consider being as though I’m commuting 4hrs a day. I love the city and I would love living down here I just financially cannot do it by myself.

My relationships are very complicated…I live with my sister technically but I really spend most of my time at my boyfriends and my sister has all these expectations for me even though I haven’t been there in weeks. I’m supposed to vacuum once a week but I haven’t been home since the last time I did it so I literally go home just to clean up their mess and leave for another week. 

Sometimes I wish my life could be much, much simpler…or you know…that I just didn’t exist. 

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Just got my breast ultrasound results and well its not a cyst but its not a tumor. Its an enlarged lymph node. From what he explained lymph nodes that become enlarged to about 1cm are not abnormal but he is alarmed because mines about 5cms. He said they only become enlarged when they’re fighting an infection or disease so now we have to figure out what its fighting.

Yay for being back to square one.

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My very first resolution was to make time and I haven’t been making very much time to track my process! How hypocritical of me!

There has been lots and lots going on. I haven’t had much time to even try to make time for me. I’ve been working like crazy to get back into the swing of school, which is another story altogether. The course load is a lot less this semester which is nice but now I have my field placement to worry about!

I’m still waiting on my breast ultrasound results so that’s been weighing on my mind quite heavily…I’m thinking everything will be alright but the longer I go without hearing anything the longer I have to worry about it!

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dearoldlove:

Why, when I was the one you didn’t want, am I the one you keep coming back to?